Well, hello there. It seems that I remembered today that I have a blog. And that I like to write on that blog. And also? That my posts are far too infrequent of late. Sorry about that, Internet!
Suffice it to say that I've been living on the outer edges of my comfort zone lately. Not always in a good way. I certainly recognize the need and the benefit in stretching my comfort zone, but these past few weeks have been a different experience altogether. I'll say only that for now, but I haven't been able to come here and articulate my feelings because truthfully, just sorting through them and keeping my head down to get through endless days has sucked up every ounce of my energy, my time, and my "output" so to speak.
Posts have materialized in my head, only to disappear completely the minute I fire up my Mac leaving me to stare blankly at my screen, the blinking of the cursor quite literally taunting me with each flash.
I've been reading a lot about authenticity and freedom to chart your own course in life and about the reality that, to really embrace this and more importantly, to live it, requires a level of courage (and often sacrifice) that I am not sure I currently possess.
So for now, I keep walking. Because really, what is my alternative? One foot in front of the other and a constant reminder that I can control only my own path and my reactions to any given situation. From challenging times, we grow. I believe this. Even when it is hard to see the forest for the trees when in the depths of it (don't have a better word...what is IT? Not sure...life, career, self worth, the search for inspiration? who knows.)
I'm focusing a lot on that old quote that I heard ad nauseam in high school and college and beyond: "Many people miss opportunity because it is dressed in overalls and it looks like work." I have no clue who to attribute this to anymore, but I'm trying to find my own personal truth in its meaning. I am searching for the opportunity in situations both challenging and mundane. I have to believe that the search will pay off, and eventually, if I look long and hard enough, I will find what I'm looking for.
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